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I dedicate this poem ( my master piece) to my only Grizzly Bear.
I love u :)

PWTC...

Mesyuarat Agung Tahunan Ansara :p

The one and only.. DATO MUKHRIZ MAHATHIR.. :)

the "Urus Setia" team.. From left : Samihah, Mahani, Hidayah Wahid, Teacher Hendon, Abe, Mamat

All of our preparations..

On 11th July 2009, my colleagues and I attended Mesyuarat Agung Tahunan Ansara 2009. It was pretty much a memorable experince as I met some of the famous people in Malaysia. A few Dato' and Tan Sri.. And of course, Dato Mukhriz Mahathir. Interesting. I love it :)

Grizzly Bear..

I dedicate this poem especially for you.. and only you....


An Entrapment

My love, I have tried with all my being
to grasp a form comparable to thine own,
but nothing seems worthy;

I know now why Shakespeare could not
compare his love to a summer’s day.
It would be a crime to denounce the beauty
of such a creature as thee,
to simply cast away the precision
God had placed in forging you.

Each facet of your being
whether it physical or spiritual
is an ensnarement
from which there is no release.
But I do not wish release.
I wish to stay entrapped forever.
With you for all eternity.
Our hearts, always as one.

Things Fall Apart..

Eventually, my beloved college or also known as KOLEJ MARA SEREMBAN is implementing active learning in our lecturers and studying as well. According to our Bonda Director, students must seek all the information on our own and not relying on teachers 100%. Yesterday, she mentioned about active learning once again during our monthly assembly. Hot, hot and extra hot. Quote:

" You are the cream of creme'. Scoring straight A's for your SPM. I don't want you to be spoon fed. And worst... being breast-fed"

Giggle... haha... She was so "Hilarious". Just now in chemistry class, i was pretty blur and pondering around when Wanie explained about basic buffer. I know i shouldn't have said this, but seriously.... she was mumbling rather than explaining. Sigh. Active Learning.


I really need my own time to adjust my mindset about the whole new active learning approach. I am not against it, but it's just too drastic for me. Certain people who can't stand the pressure would definitely crack their heads off.. One good example...


Mia. My BIO mentor. I am NOT talking trash about her, but i think she was being too emotional about studies and all sorts of things. For instance, just now we had a group discussion during BIO class. Teacher Jue can't make it due to some reasons. I have no idea myself. I was trying to calm down by listening to my play list and then...


Mia was sulking... She didn't join the discussion. After a while...... BOOM!! Volcano eruption.. She was ACTING like a mad cow. Nagging me like as if i was a 5 years old kid. It was totally unnecessarily for her to erupt in such a way. Pretty funny to me as i didn't hear a word .... haha...

And after a while, she cooled down and apologized to me for what she had done. Mia, mia.. I am hoping she can cope with all the stress that IB life offers.. A must indeed...


Anyway, one problem solved, the new one turned up. The teachers here should know that, we the IB seniors would have no time to cramp in 10000 activities at a time. All right. Maybe i was exaggerating. Here's the thing. IA Math MUST BE SUBMITTED ON MONDAY ; 13TH JULY 2009. it's like a few days remaining, and guess what? Miyn and I and some others were assigned to attend "Mesyuarat Agong Ansara 2009" held in PWTC on this Saturday. Teacher Jue was right. This college will always says yes to everything... Yes, Yes, and Yes... There are things that we have to do, for instance slide shows, fliers and decorating some display boards. I don't mind helping the teachers... BUT THE TIME IS NOT RIGHT!!!

i can only follow as being ordered.. Hopefully i would be able to go through this with an open heart......................

Makcik Cleaner, Pakcik Rahman, Tamam

1st of July. The worst day in my life as an IB senior in KMS. Same goes with Elly. Here is my story..

I was reading Reader's Disgest in my new room, and switching on my lap top to try my luck this tim to connect with the internet. Then the chaos began.

" Adik, kenape adik ade kt bilik nie??. Bilik nie patutnye kosong", the makcik cleaner said in the most annoying way.

"makcik... saye memang kene pindah bawah. Warden yang suruh," i replied in a proper way..

then she asked me again..

" Nie kenape luar basah nie? makcik dah kemas dh ari tuh...", she started to lose her temper..

mine as well...

" makcik, kami cuci semalam. dapat taw pown 2 hari lepas.. rushing"

" Kenape xpindah awal2? nie mcm mane nie??"

" Bilik nie kunci 2 ari lepas. Kami xdapat masok".


then the conversation went on and on. My blood rushed to my brain. I was so pissed off and annoyed with the way she talked to me.

i thought that was the end. I was wrong. later, an old man came into my room. Pakcik Rahman. The same question, with the same answer. And the same tone..


" Kenape kamu kat sini??"

" I was being ordered to move."

" hmmm... Who asked u to do so?"

" Cikgu Ikhwan"

" HAish.. Ikhwan pown satu.. Nanti macam mane nnti? clash ngan juniors.."

At that moment, i was like.. what the hack? I was ordered to move and this is what i get.

he then continued..

" Pakcik xnak awak ade masalah nti. Susah. nnti parents yang datang cakap ape plak kan.. susah kami nanti"

"saye faham pakcik.."

"awak ade keje xnie?"

"xder"

"kalau macam tuh.. tlg makcik neyh.. Tunggu sini smpai junior sampai"

" tp pukol 10.30 saya ade duty."

"xpe2. lambat lagi.."

i just can't stand it. I immedietly texted fatin to come over to my room. A few minutes later, she gave me a call.. She confirmed that everything is under control and my room will not be entered by any juniors because they had already arranged everything. Relived, i told that to Pakcik Rahman. Ironically, he didn't take it seriously. He had a doubt in his eyes. i just can tell..


The drama got even interesting.. Tamam turned up. I thought he would attack me like the others. He saved me somehow..

Pakcik Rahman : Sy takot bilik laen clash. Masalah kite nanti..

Tamam : Memang bilik nie untuk IB senior.

Pakcik Rahman : ouh.. Klu mcm tuh xper lah..


shish.. I supposed i am just too young for people to trust me.. sigh, sigh, sigh...


Tamam asked whether i had cleared up my room upstairs. and he asked me to clear up the room as soon as possible..


Later, i went upstairs to let my roomate, Elly about the news. She was sick. Having fever and severe head ache. I told her in a rush.

"Elly, we need to clear up this room now"

As she heard me uttering the word "NOW", she started cursing. I mean, it wasn't her fault to do so.. She was sick. A few words slipped away from her mouth. The words shall private and confidental. :p

WIth the help from fatin, we managed to clear up the room and took some of Elly's and Ifa's stuff downstairs. Some of their belongings were placed in the utility room. Imaginable. That's the right expression of my feelings at that time. There was nothing else we could do.

At last, Elly could rest. I understand how she felt. Angry, for sure and dissapointed. She kept on cursing all the makcik cleaners for messing around with her. Pity Elly. I let her to rest on my bed since her bed had a mountain of books, clothes and some others.We'll deal with it later on...



Ifa turned up after a while. She apologized for not being there when that happened. What was funny, Ifa had to listen to Elly's long lecture about the makcik cleaner. Thank goodness she was being patient. A few minutes later,she had to go to handle the registration for the new students. Leaving me with Elly once again.


Elly kept on cursing about the college and the makcik cleaner. I just listened to what she said and continued writing my blog. First draft, since i wasn't able to connect with any internet connection. It was okeyh, i didn't mind. As long as she felt at ease. :)

10.30. Duty calls... and for the past 30 minutes, i was writing and still writing and doing the announcement at the same time. I can call my self, The Super DAWA.. haha... kidding..

I am so hungry right now.. I shall stop here. Like my other posts, i shall conclude what i have written....


IN A NUT SHELL, i need to be patient when it comes to any circumstances despite whatever happens. And,i am so glad that i still have the "nilai-nilai murni", "kesopanan dan kesusilaan" despite i was angry. ^_^

New Room!!

New room, with internet connection. woohoo!!! The first thing that came across my mind. But eventually... There was not any internet connection, I mean. there was. But the strength was low. Or perhaps there was error in the internet connection. Anyway. 8.30 pm. I rushed down to my filty, dusty new room. Ifa had already started cleaning the room. Holding a mop and a pail in my both hands, I started doing my job. CLEANING THE ROOM!!

Despite we already cleaned the room, it was still dusty. The floor especially. We mopped the floor, with soapy water. But yet, the dirt didn't seem to be vanished. The worst thing was that, there was stagnant water in the room. Fail in construction. My own term. hehe..

Ifa and I worked so hard to make sure the water would flow out of our room. And we did!! ^_^ But the corridor was definitely covered with the water from our room. gagaaga..

So, i left the room for an hour. The room was not 100% dried. But yet, i still lodged my stuff in the room. I buckled up everything and arranged them nicely. I love the new arrangement.. :) It took me approximately an hour to finish up everything. Tired, and sleepy. My new bed was so tempting. Mushy pillows.. But, i didn't have the guts to sleep alone in my new room. the corridor had this erie looking since ifa and i were the only homo sapeans there.

Despite all that, i wanted to try on-lining in my own room. Like i mentioned before. My lap top was connected to the internet, but for certain reasons i just can't connect it with the internet connection. Not that lucky i supposed.

As i was eagered trying my best to connect to the internet, poof. Light off!! KMS way to minimize the electrical usage. VERY CONVENIENT.. In a sarcastic kind of way if you know what i mean.. I went upstairs, and slept on Pah's bed. To the dream world.....

tragic story...

How would feel if any random guys or your male friends calling u names, inappropriate one.... Despite he didn't mean it.. Well.. this is my tragic story.

Almost noon. Mathematics class. Hungry, hot and monotonous. i sat at the back row in the class, accompanied by Miyn and Liyana. Sitting in front of me was P**N , the most "genius", "Polite" man ever live in the planet earth..

The lesson didn't affect my brain at all.. empty. blank. So, since i didn't have anything to do, something came across my mind... P**N's date on Saturday.. Without hesitation, and saying it in the most friendly way..

"Hey u, how was ur day out in JJ?"

" Bangsat arr kau dawa"

=.= He replied it in the most irritating and spontaneous way. I got so pissed off, and mocked him instead.. approximately, for 6 minutes.

I just don't think that was the right way to reply to my question.. And to make it worst, he was suggesting a "better" name for me..

" Xpe2.. aku tuka.. aku panggil ko banjingan"

i was dumbstruck. Never ever in my life hearing such word coming from a mouth of a guy. Disrespect. How can he think of such thing. The meaning would still be the same. I lost my respect on him since that moment. No apologies, nothing.

Sad, despair and angry. To be shocking, nobody backed me up. Girls or guys. even Miyn herself :( but... never mind then.. She had her own reason for saying what she had in mind.

I told arif about it,and guess what.. He said the same exact thing as Miyn. It was pretty disappointing. sigh. sigh. sigh. I took my own time to relax and put my mind at ease. It worked.

In a nut shell, i think we need to speak up for your right. Although there is a high chance that people would not back you up, it's all right. As long as you do what you think is right. Everything will be okeyh. :)